What’s the meaning of owning a paid blog hosting, two fancy cameras + three pricy lenses, and a passion for traveling without recording and remembering??

I have been battling whether I should keep this blog hosting for a while. Yes, I am keeping it, but I still can’t help but wonder what is the meaning of owning such a thing without much contents, and visitors either for that matter.
This is a little embarrassing. I don’t want to reinforce the idea that I am a quitter again. I thought about posting various projects of my life in Tokyo as foreigner here over the past 4 years, but I ended up doing it only once or twice a year. Recently, I started again, but most likely because I was too bored during the pandemic lockdown.
This has to change dramatically. As a first step, I will do a recap of my past travelings in Japan before my move to Germany, then start some regular stuff here. I want to create things.